Monday, June 20, 2005
11:46 PM
wahah. tribute to all my section mates graduating. ((:yiting -
wahahaha. joined the section only like 2 years ago from saxophone. but you'r the sort of 'kai xin guo' in the mist of us. brighten up the whole section and stuff. even though you didnt join SYF you still helped our sec 1s!! you and your smile foreverrrr. will miss you to bits. ((:
cui fen -
the very first person who ever taught me how to play a proper clarinet chromatic scale. the very first person whom i met before entering the music room. respect you a lot cause you'r a good asst. band major and 'teacher'. very patient and also funny with us!! will miss u too!! :D
lay peng -
wahaha. i'm gonna make you cry from reading this cause i initially wanted to pass you a letter but in the end FORGOT to bring on the graduation nite so now typing it out. sorry. haha. k. i'll tryyyy to make u cry though i doubt it will laaa. kkies. hmm.
i remembered when i JUST entered the band that time eileen told us sec 1s that you and jiahui were the latest to enter the clarinet section yet the fastest to learn and that we had to learn from you all. so i was like WAH. REALLY. so quickly learn hoping to catch up with seniors. then i really dont know you at all cause firstly i hardly talk to you during sectionals and secondly i was quite scared of drills' instructors at that time cause they shout too loud and too much [whatever. i sec 1 oni what.]
then mid sec 2. they changed our section leader from eileen to you. then me, yokelian and others were VERY uncomfortable cause not used to the sudden change. we got a bit jumpy and frighten at times and other times dont even care anymore. then i remembered when you JUST became a section leader, only a week old, i asked yokelian and kexin.
" who will be you miss the most during graduation next year? "
and they replied
" yiting ".
thats all. i figured that they dare not trust someone whom they were not so familiar with yet so i didnt say anything. Before the KL trip, our section was trying to figure out the 'Saturday Nite Fever' rythmn and we kept laughing cause we kept getting mixed up. =pp During the KL trip, i was sitting with yuting and unfortunately you were sitting behind me so i had to put up with you laughing like crazy all the way with jiahui and putting your feet inbetween mine and yuting's chair to SCARE us. then you started with your Elmo song which then mr lim recorded down on vcd and BOOM. our sesame street history began. finally it was the preparing of Opus II. our section practiced together always in a happy mood cause you would do the UNTHINKABLE like pulling ppl's hair all of a sudden or something then every laugh. our section like just turned nuts. yoke lian was struggling with her solo and you kept reminding her to play out play out when she was afraid or something. and somehow she managed to play it out!! =DD yay. then its like our section had so many problems, musically or emotionally, and i was always scared that you would just give up on our section and just walk away angrily. but nopeee. u would rather resort to talking to them nicely and blah. (:
then finally came this year. you took the sec 1s and at first i thot it was pretty harsh on you that you had to take them all on even with your O levels year this year. but then, it turned out the clarinet sec 1s were the fastest learners among all sec 1s and yes. your effort paid off ((:
seriously, i was rather impressed. i knew taking 8 ignorant and totally blur first time sec 1s would be difficult but i wouldnt even expect them to learn that fast. then u started to have those lessons and blah. sectionals were different. it was a lot a lot more quieter. even yokelian pointed out that " elmo isnt here. " and we would get all odd and stuff. then at times u and esther would pass by and if you noticed, we would become all excited all of a sudden and start doing silly things to you like RUFFLE YOUR HAIR and PULL YOUR ARMS and anything. ((:
the sec 1s started to ask stuff like " where's lay peng " and we would have to reply " o levels laaaa " and they would go " HUH. SO FAST?? " then at times mr lim would be like " 5 clarinets only? " and we would just realise how small our section has became. surprisely, we would turn around and whisper to each other " come on!! lets play louder!! " and yeah. we did. then came the time i was appointed probational band major. needless to say i was pretty much freaked out and scared. screaming isnt my speciality with my high pitched voice and everything. we had the training session and you wouldnt stop imitating me in my voice and join dunno what 'rebecca's club' . waha. even when i cried at certain stuff while having my post, you smsed me to remind me to perservere on and that it will take time for me to learn. its because of this that i kept reminding myself that " act and be like a band major. even if you'r just a probational one. "
then came the time we were at bedok north's for a sectionals session with Li Xin. after that i figured we could FOR ONCE have a SECTION lunch and suggested it. and yeah. we had a great time all talking together about ' that weird girl ' and i ended up thinking to myself.. " will the section ever have a chance to sit together and eat like this again? " finally SYF came. i did the unthinkable and started praying for everyone and you were looking at me all weirdly. we made it through the SYF even with a silver. the section photo we took was probably our first, last and best one.
then POP came. you all passed out and were sitting over there awaiting regent's turn to perform. i had a churning feeling that you would be wondering whether " the clarinet section can make it anot?? " for merry widow. but not sure then. so we played on. hopefully we didnt let you down. then auld lang syne. sec 1s had been practicing a lot at home and school and i KNEW you would be the first to cry although you wouldnt admit it. i didnt cry. i really didnt. being the cold heartless me? i realised lots of people were crying but not me yet. until the very last note the sec 1s sang hit me then my eyes got a bit blurry before clearing away again. sec 4s joined in and the mood got higher. then we broke off for photos. yoke lian was practically crying a river with fatin. i havent cried. i wasnt thinking of anything. blank blank blank. then u came over with cui fen. and blah. HUG. and THEN. tears started streaming down. (: it was like. last year i totally didnt cry. i probably didnt have any seniors whom i actually liked to talk to and laugh with very much. maybe it was just different this year. this year we have some people whom we actually didnt want to leave us because of all the good times. i realised that you were the first ever senior who i really dared to talk to and laugh with personally. for the other seniors, i would always step back and put on a fake front before nearing them. liyana was cute. she was like " i saw lay peng crying, so i cried. "
funny how someone can impact another? it came to me then perhaps this was the last time we were having a 'sesame street' photo and jokes together, the last time i could play and laugh with you, the last time the section could joke around with you, the last time we can all play the clarinet section together as Clarinet Section 2005 when we were playing singapore rhapsody. And in one year, it would be mine, kexin's and siying's turn.
Everything is fast. But thats time.
Yoke Lian asked me during dinner yesterday.
" rebecca, who do you think I will miss the most after today? "
I thought of her answer last year and said.
" oh. yiting i guess. "
she shook her head and said.
" you'r wrong. i'll miss Lay Peng first. then the section. "
i was so touched. (: