Monday, August 29, 2005
10:55 PM
self proclaim: HAPPY TODAY. ((:a beautfiul morning, and i have to go to school. not that i'm complaining, i really like school. (:
realised all my clocks were at different times. thats when the panic arises. all of them are going bonkers. damn.
got a chocolate bar from chenyang (thx!) for you-dont-eat-sweets-sake. lol. i was in a state of shock but really glad. chocolate makes anyone's day, right?? (((:
got back my second mother tongue paper. a 49%. i blame myself for not copying one
pissed off with mr seetho during his lesson. i feel more like a
history was a total rack, like always. got back my source based, and just as i predicted, i'm almost on the failing source based side. damn. my A might be pulled down to a B with these small tests, no matter how good my assignments and big tests are. sigh. )):
spent DnT doing something i wouldnt have dream of doing. doing up my band schedule for the camp. i dont know how, but i wasnt caught at all. yet i was doing it oh-so-openly. strange. when you do something 'bad' openly infront of a teacher, he wouldnt catch you. when you do something 'bad' secretly infront of a teacher, he will.
i'm getting more to the philosophy's side. :DD
today i learned something i would not have learned from my classrooms, classwork and teachers. and thats how BOYS work. no, its not how they move or anything. Its how they think.
Today, one of my male friends broke up with his girlfriend. he told me all about what had happened between him and his stead. all the problems, the solutions, the suggestions? usually i would cast guys would have this problems aside rather hastily, being the 'sexist female' i am. Yet, when i listened and understood today, i realised that whenever girls think " you do not understand me " , they just DONT know that yes, the guy doesnt UNDERSTAND you, but he UNDERSTAND UNDERSTANDS you. thats a fact. a true statement. i would never have believed that his stead would ever be like that. Right. Never judge a book by its cover. now it has come to my attention to this conclusion, dont ever TRY to play with boys' heart. you dont know what you'r playing at. guys seem like I-CAN-TAKE-IT but their heart can be ten times more fragile than the girls'. it may be fun to see him looking jealous or risking this and that for you, but hey, you'r on the losing side, that's YOUR stead. so much to understand, yet you'll have to see how much effort and time you are willing to put into a relationship to understand him. and his plight, for goodness sake.
it scares me when boys cry. thats when they show their true feelings. i got scared today. twice. sigh.
i've learned to treat my class boys with much more respect. (:
3 more breakups occured this past weeks. i kind of expect many more to come. mostly from the sec 4s. the stress and stuff, yeah you get it.
it all seems so familiar
music at acs wasnt the lesson, but just the common test for CA2. and wow. it wasnt a SHORT one. did harmony and melody writing first. Gosh, if i could sight sing really well, i wouldnt be trying to figure out whether my melody could work or not. Western music was next. and i didnt know what were DEVICES. o my. ended up putting down instruments for i-dunno-why reasons. World music was the next section, sort of listening comphrension. apparantly, i cant tell from a biwa, koto and shamisen. my my. i hope i dont fail. ):
ended up going home early. i HATE going home early. cause i will like fall asleep on the sofa or just an easy chair. like what just happened. BOO.
jiahui just called up. we HAVE to use the stage. sigh. o well. at least the attire is something i can look forward to. ((:
liyana called up for a little chat. o my. the secrets. gosh. /grins
damn, i dont know how to do my chinese functional writing. how. how. ):
lvl up for maple. :D i'm glad.
o wow. how come i failed to notice that the top scorers for chinese in the split classes are always from 3/7. bingquan, weida and chunjie all 70+. o my.
rehearsal tmr. byes.
why is always when i feel that hope is gone,
it comes backw
hen i feel that its back,
it goes?
sigh.