Sunday, September 04, 2005
11:09 PM
o wow. i see so many people couting their L1R5 and L1B4 scores. how come i'm not? lol. cause i think counting now is like of no use. like. its only for term 3? zz. on the other hand, i just like counting it for fun purposes. so for mine. L1R5 is 24. L1B4 is 19. ok. thats really pathetic. off the topic.sometimes movies can teach us a lot more stuff than we always try to learn from in life. (:
u know what. i really hate it when those mages come ks me while playing maple and leave those poor noobs nothing to attack. and yet they still tell me " stop ks-ing me please " . ARGH. i was like. there first. ho hum. o well. i shall not get angry over such a silly thing. will be damn childish and immature of me. blahs.
right. my mum came back at like 4pm and started screaming [surprisingly] at me and my sister for not clearing up our bowls after we haven eaten. not that she will always scream, but she only does that if she's in a really really bad mood. throughout her screaming, i just stayed in the study room not saying anything. thats the only way to show her "HEY. NO ONE'S LISTENING." thats when i just walked to the kitchen and just told her straight in her face in chinese,
" you dont just come home all pissed off and start venturing your anger on me and cheryl. so what if we clear our bowls? you will still say " why didnt you wipe it ? " so what if we wipe it ? you will still say " why didnt you arrange it nicely on the cupboard ? " so what if we arranged it nicely, you will still say " Why didnt you arrange it even nicer ? " all the things you say when you'r then pissed off. "
only that i aint really good in my spoken chinese. so all kinds of broken english came out.
she was just stunned there. then i proceeded,
" see. even we took in the laundry without you telling us to since it rained this morning. "
she said ,
" you took it off ONLY when it rained WHAT. "
i replied,
" but if i didnt take in the laundry, would it be dry now? what if i left it outside? would you want to scream some more? "
and that shut her up. she just went off.
and i said all this is a CALM manner. no anger or anything. well. maybe a bit.
i dont know how i do it. but if i take up that attitude with my present teachers and BAND teachers like how i did with my mum and MR SEOW, man, i wouldnt even be here. might even have been labeled " slut " or something by some wannabe chick.
at the same time, some teachers might just think they are so smart and go " but this is what you'r SUPPOSED to do as a daughter. " or worse. " ...as a band major. " . i'm sorry but wtf? i was born with a silver spoon in my mouth, and i dont deny it that i'm filthy spoilt. i didnt learn and wasnt exactly taught properly how to respect people of any age or whatever shit since i was born. but one thing i know for sure, i learn everything myself. my parents didnt teach me all this shit, but hey, at least they have a heart to point out to me what i SHOULDNT do. i aint a mummy's girl or daddy's girl whom their parents will go "aww. you SHOULD do this. " i take my attitude pretty seriously, if i know whats right for me, baby, i'll just go on. so there. at least i reply with a strict yet calm tone. and some stupid teachers will just think HEY THATS ATTITUDE. like BULLSHIT. they just dont have any sons or daughters who really love them yet or their children just PRETEND to love them. blahs. sluts and bitches may be labelled as the 'bad ones', those are the FAKES. the PLASTICS. the WANNABES. however, if you take the real ones in for a closer look, they might as well be the good sluts and bitches. the real ones. the GLASSES. the ITS. the FIVE STARS.
at times, i think people just learn better this way.
did i mention i dont believe in love? right. i dont. :D