Saturday, October 08, 2005
8:57 AM
its 8:33am in the morning and i'm in front of the computer after eating breakfast at macdonalds with dororin and the rest. and guess what.i've been thinking. (:
as i'm doing this, yuren and desmond are asleep in my room cause they were too tired to go all the way home. LOL.
right. back to what i was saying. i've been thinking.
that this IS actually my worst end of year exam ever. for once, i try to study in a group or alone. but it just doesnt work. nothing goes into me. or rather it just doesnt want to stay there. seriously, i dont know whats wrong. often i find myself pondering halfway through maths questions and all of a sudden something about my friend or band just barges into my mind. and POOF. there it goes. sad case. thought it was time to sharpen my tools. but hey. its almost too late. half of my papers are gone already, and i dont think i did well on my major papers. music results will be out this monday. its all too fast. and after that, i'll start preparing for O levels next year. woah. life is revolving round me faster than a bullet.
my class sec 3s and the sec 2s met haiqing yesterday cause i brought haiqing with me to study with us (all the way from jurong, LOL). and haozhi told haiqing,
"slack all you want in sec 1. sec 2 maybe study a bit. because in sec 3 and 4 there's no more chance to do so."
its scary, but it all made sense.
i see all the sec ones going "i miss band" and "it feels so weird going to school without the band file" and such. of course, its something to be glad about. weird. i dont have that feeling. for this time. i'm like. i dont want to go back to band. i dont.
something' seriously wrong with me. i just know it. if some dear bandmates can start knocking some sense into me that the hongkong trip is coming up, maybe it will help.
or i'm just missing too much.
oh right. i just made a random check up on the 2 sec two boys in my room. o my. they sleep like angels. ((:
thats why i say, i want my children to be boys when i grow up. LOL. :D