Sunday, July 23, 2006
11:02 PM
happy sunday people!haha.
lame x)
ok.
had bible study today, was great.
learnt A LOT of stuff about buddhism.
yup, bet i know more than my friends who are buddhists.
betcha, yes i do. :D
oh. was reviewing through my masterlife book.
and i remembered about the THANKSGIVING.
you know what.
yup, sometimes all of us take too many things for granted.
we just dont give thanks for everything.
(warning: VERY long post up ahead, go prepare some snacks! haha!)
just imagine.
what if you had one less leg?
what if you had one less arm?
what if you did not belong to a school?
what if you didnt have food?
what if there wasnt air?
what if there wasnt a 'what if'?
never thought of it right?
always the,
" aiyah, miss school never mind one lah "
" school so boring! so siannn. "
stuff like that?
yes that was me before.
i would miss school though i love school just because i'm plain lazy.
i dont want to take things for granted anymore!
so i'm going to grab every opportunity in school to attend it.
God knows how many people in africa cannot go to school!
ok. i WILL go to school tomorrow.
i shall not pon school anymore.
pon-ning is bad!
thats why i have suspension next week ah.
haha !
oh yes oh yes
i just realised i have been taking my instruments for granted
not the clarinets i play in band.
not the piano or flute i play at home.
but the violin.
yes, tell you all the truth, i hate my violin the most.
play finish, fingers pain, arm pain, blah blah.
so i never had taken violin very seriously in my life before.
SERIOUSLY.
and my past teachers had always complimented/complained (however you put it) that i would have already been a very competitive-standard violinist if only i would practice at least 20 mins A WEEK.
i'm not showing off. its the truth. i know it myself too.
see how much i dont wish to sacrifice. see how much i'm throwing away.
and for those who dont know, the violin is my very FIRST instrument.
yup.
and when people ask me whether i play the violin,
really, i feel ASHAMED to say YES.
because i dont LIKE to play it. i think its HORRIBLE.
and i always tell people NOT TO PLAY THE VIOLIN!
YES I DO THAT! ):
i told kexin (saxophone) not to play the violin in poly!
OH THE NERVE OF ME ):
and yes. believe it or not. i gave up all the chances God had given me.
God had talked through my teachers to ask whether i would enter this and that competition.
and my reaction always?
NO. NO. NO.
i'm too ASHAMED to be SEEN with a VIOLIN.
to me, a violin must have been the WORST INSTRUMENT.
not because i cant play it, bloody hell, i CAN play it well.
but its just because i REFUSE TO TRY. I REFUSED TO PLAY.
and i'm taking it for granted.
i've seen people like zhenjun and dororin pointing out to me how lucky i am to have a piano at home, to have a violin, to have lessons, blah blah, you name it.
and i just dont care. just. ORH.
and to make things worse,
i skip violin lessons.
HA! GOT YOU RIGHT THERE!
you all thought i was the perfect guai guai all-lesson-surely-go music student right.
HELL NOOOOOOOOOOOOO.
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regret? better not. i still have time.
from today onwards, i picking up my violin again.
to tell you all the truth i have not been touching it for the past 7 months.
i know, EVERYONE SHOULD SUE ME. ):
WAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH )))):
and you know what?
and i'll show you what God had made me to become of. (:
of course ah.
in the process, cannot forget God!
cannot put God behind violin (:
must partner w God, yup. lol.
I'M A VIOLINIST.
HELL YEAH. I'M PROUD OF IT. :D
so sorry God, i WILL listen next time, yes i will! :D
i love masterlife.
yes i do! :DDDD